in sickness and in health

Well we are half way through the month and I find myself asking where has the past month went?

So here is an update on Chris:

He had the ablation on Sept. 28th. Things seemed to have gone well the only negative being that when they pulled on the catheters he got a hematoma. So, when he started to heal he had a HUGE nasty colored bruise on his thigh. He went back to work on Monday and on Wednesday he had yet ANOTHER episode of rapid heart beat. They told us that there was a 95% chance he would never have issues again and just 5 days after surgery the same problem comes back and this time it's worse! Saturday we went to the emergency room only to be told he would have to follow up with his cardiologist and sent on our way. Monday he went to the cardiologist to pick up an event heart monitor. He was told to wear it at all times except when sleeping or bathing. The monitor held up to 5 recordings. Tuesday he worked almost all day with his heart going crazy, all the while recording every episode with the monitor. At the end of the work day he finally went to the nurses station and they had to call an ambulance for him. Second ambulance ride in a month! My husband is 34 this should not be happening! This time we went to Memorial and they also said that he would have to follow up with the cardiologist but they would prescribe him a beta blocker to hold him over (hopefully) until he could see them. Chris wanted to return to work the following morning (Wednesday) but on the way to work... you guessed it...his heart goes into super speed mode. So we decided to just go see the cardiologist that day. When we got there they printed off what the monitor had recorded and Tuesday his heart rate had been 270+. That's when they told us that they would have to admit him. If that were to happen again he needed to be somewhere that they could take care of him, and another ablation was scheduled for Thursday morning. The 2nd ablation was performed Thursday morning and he actually did much better with this one than the first. Very little bruising and so far he feels just fine. After the 1st one not going well and the SVT coming back I'm holding my breath and knocking on wood that the 3rd time will never be the charm.

On top of Chris' health issues a very dear friend of mine is losing the fight against cancer. Holly and Chris have taken up every inch of my mind the past several weeks. I literally feel like I've been functioning in what Gabe likes to call a foggy fog. I go to sleep at night but don't really sleep and I wake up but I feel like I'm  not really awake. I'm exhausted and I'm stressed out. Chris and I are struggling financially to keep our heads above water with him missing so much work. And not that our kids are spoiled but I hate telling them we don't have enough money for little things at school, etc. Plus, Mary asked me today if Daddy was going to be sick on Halloween and if he was who would take them trick or treating :( They have worried too. Bless their buttons. I feel like I'm stretched as thin as I can go. At any moment I may explode and start ripping heads off. The past couple of days when I find myself thinking about Holly I have to start thinking of something else b/c just the thought of all the pain she is going through and what her children must be feeling and her devoted husband who I have grown to admire so much.... I feel like my heart is being twisted into knots...Why? Why does she have to endure this? Why do her children have to watch her die? People say it's what the Lord planned but I don't GET that. I'll be the first to admit that I question my faith and this why.

While Chris was in the hospital I thought for a brief moment what my life would be like without him and the truth is... I wouldn't be me anymore. He is literally my other half. Thinking about living the rest of my life and not having him to share it with is unbearable. Hollys' husband Chris is an amazing man. I don't know how he has stayed so strong. He hasn't just stayed strong for Holly but for her kids and his kids and their shared family and friends. Saying I admire their commitment to their marriage is an understatement.

Besides the kids the only ray of sunshine here lately has been that my best friend is being induced tomorrow night :) I have already warned her that I've been a basket case lately so don't be alarmed if I cry more at the birth than anyone else. I can't wait to hold that sweet little ball of baby :)

I can't quit crying!

Going under the knife. A craft show. And crazy kids :)

So, all has went well for Chris' surgery :)

We were supposed to be at the hospital Friday morning at 8, but the night before they called and said they needed us to come in later at 2. Well then about 11 on Friday they called again and said they had a cancellation and wanted us to be there at 12 :/

So we hauled butt to get to the hospital and were a few minutes late. After all the pre-knife stuff it was after 2 before they wheeled him away. It didn't seem like he was really going to have heart surgery, he still looked like himself. They said they would call before they began and about half way through. Well, an hour and a half went by with no phone call so I had a nurse call them. They said everything was going ok and they had found one tachycardia and were making sure that there were no more. Another hour or so passed and he was on his way back to the room. This time was scarier. He came in and he had a dozen wires hooked up to him and tubes and I was scared :( but when the doctor came in he told us that there was a 95% chance that he wouldn't have anymore issues :) Thank goodness!

I know one thing I will never miss is the hospital recliner :/ It was possibly the worst night of sleep in my life.

Craft show this weekend!!! I'm getting super excited :) I have been busting my butt this past week making my goodies and getting things together. I will have several different things:

Chalk board plaques

Country wine glasses

Book page medallions

Christmas wreaths

Hair bow holders

... and a few other things including some very unique items :)

After the show on Saturday I'm going to start a Facebook page to sell my handmade items :)

Honestly, I think I have the funniest kids ever. They make me laugh everyday even if I'm in a rotten mood. Here are some funny things the kids have said today:

Gabe: (While using the potty) "It's white Christy! Not yellow!" (talking about his pee. lol.)

Mary reminded me *6* times to pack her lunch for tomorrow. Also, she almost cried at dinner b/c I made her eat her broccoli. *drama queen*

Ethan told me he was going to do 20 chores for a $1 a chore. He ended up doing 4 chores, including cleaning the toilet and scooping out the cat box :)

And last but not least... When I asked Joey what he wanted to be for Halloween he said, "A black eyed pea!"

Gotta love 'em.