So, Chris and I had yet another busy weekend. This past weekend my cousins wedding was on the agenda. We also got to keep the kids again this weekend :) I really do love having the kiddos around and I was upset that I had to work all weekend except for the wedding day.
Saturday was the wedding and it ended up being a beautiful day. I must say that College Grove TN is a beautiful community. Honestly, it reminded me a little of Rockspring. On the way there we stopped in South Pittsburg to get something to drink at a gas station. Walked in and while I was scanning the drink section a woman came up to me and said, "Oh honey let me pull that down for you!". Just so happens that my skirt was up ALL THE WAY due to some static cling and my girdle was showing :/
Got to the church and it was adorable. One of those ole timey churchs that is small and has the stained glass windows and undeniable charm. The ceremony was beautiful along with the bride :) My favorite part was when the bride and groom (my cousin) put their heads together to pray. It was like time stood still for them and they were just held in that moment and we, the guests, weren't even there. Ceremony was followed by family pics. It's so nice when family can get together like that. It has been YEARS since we have all been together at the same time. Really, it's a shame we don't get together like we used to, but people grow up and get in the grind of life. I know how it is. lol.
The reception was next and it was also very nice. I loved the cookie bar with the white and choc milk in shot glasses. Cute idea! Also, the prime rib was the bomb.
Chris and I left early so we could head home to get the kids and thankfully no more girdle showing happened.
Going to weddings the past 2 weekends reminds me of my own wedding day. Yes, Chris and I chose at the last minute to do a very private impromptu ceremony, but I wouldn't change that at all. Whether you have 6 guests or 100 a happily married couple does not remember the bells and whistles or the guest list they remember how they felt saying their vows to the one they love. I never would have thought that being married would be such an adventure and full of so much love and friendship :) With all of Chris' health issues the past few weeks I have really been looking at things differently. Each of us are living in the here and now and not promised tomorrow. I try to cherish every moment I have with the kids and Chris.
Look at the children while they are sleeping and think about how they will look in 20 years.
Feel how small their hands are when they are holding mine.
Save even the scribble art they make.
Save the roses that chris buys me. I still have roses from the very first bouquet :)
Listening to him snore at night (strangely) is like a lullaby.
Even after all this time he can still give me butterflies because he is so sweet :)
I'm feeling very sappy today. lol. I may start crying.
But seriously sometimes we get in such a rush we don't stop to smell the roses. I'm guilty of it too.
The Gilberts
The reason for my domestication
Monday, September 17, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
Thank you.
Today Chris went back to the cardiologist and the verdict is surgery.
I was scared to death at first and then he explained to me that it really wasn't going to be a big procedure. They will go in through his belly button and they will find the problem nerve and remove it. Voila! (I'm still kinda scared) They said he will have to stay over night but as long as things are good the next day he will be able to leave. Also, the surgery will be on my birthday... so looks like we will be partying Parkridge style :)
I got to thinking today how lucky we are. These past couple of weeks have been hard; emotionally and financially. Chris still has yet to receive any short term disability benefits, but we have managed thanks to wonderful family and friends :) Just today I met my sister and she had an entire trunk full of groceries for us that 2 women at her church had wanted to give us, and last week a good friend of mine gave me a huge bag of clothes for Mary. I really don't know what we would do if it weren't for people like them helping us out. I've always been very proud but I suppose as you get older you realize that there is no shame in taking a helping hand when you truly NEED it.
Finally met some of Chris' friends this weekend at a wedding :) What can I say??.... I've never seen so many men in their 30's wearing converse. Really though, they were all very awesome. It was like I could picture them in their teens being nerdy and playing video games and listening to music.... I don't listen to... haha :) Chris doesn't see enough of them. We will have to plan a get-together very soon. I told Chris as we were leaving I thought it was great that he had such a large group of close friends. I have a few I keep near and dear but not half as many as him.
Our dryer squeaks. It has completely distracted me. Tax time = new dryer.
Well, I'm going to leave you now but I will be back soon!
I was scared to death at first and then he explained to me that it really wasn't going to be a big procedure. They will go in through his belly button and they will find the problem nerve and remove it. Voila! (I'm still kinda scared) They said he will have to stay over night but as long as things are good the next day he will be able to leave. Also, the surgery will be on my birthday... so looks like we will be partying Parkridge style :)
I got to thinking today how lucky we are. These past couple of weeks have been hard; emotionally and financially. Chris still has yet to receive any short term disability benefits, but we have managed thanks to wonderful family and friends :) Just today I met my sister and she had an entire trunk full of groceries for us that 2 women at her church had wanted to give us, and last week a good friend of mine gave me a huge bag of clothes for Mary. I really don't know what we would do if it weren't for people like them helping us out. I've always been very proud but I suppose as you get older you realize that there is no shame in taking a helping hand when you truly NEED it.
Finally met some of Chris' friends this weekend at a wedding :) What can I say??.... I've never seen so many men in their 30's wearing converse. Really though, they were all very awesome. It was like I could picture them in their teens being nerdy and playing video games and listening to music.... I don't listen to... haha :) Chris doesn't see enough of them. We will have to plan a get-together very soon. I told Chris as we were leaving I thought it was great that he had such a large group of close friends. I have a few I keep near and dear but not half as many as him.
Our dryer squeaks. It has completely distracted me. Tax time = new dryer.
Well, I'm going to leave you now but I will be back soon!
Monday, September 3, 2012
Crazy busy summer = no blog for a longggg time.
I"m back! lol.
Really, it probably would have been even longer before my return, but this past Friday Rachel and I went to the Ringgold high school football game and ran into Olivia Crawford (can not remember her married name) who said she enjoyed reading Rachels blog and then I thought "Wow!" I have been leaving my fans hanging for most of the summer. By the way, high school football games... bittersweetness :/ It always makes me sad to watch the half time show and see the girls warming up and dancing in the stands... AAAAHHH! My glory days!!! (lol) On another note though, I feel like I am getting old. My birthday is less than a month away and I will be 25. Twenty-five!!!!! I remember being a teen and thinking 25 was old. eeehhhh....
So, to catch everyone up on the home life:
I still love Chris. 11/11 it will be 1 year :)
Gabe has grown 4 sizes over the summer... seriously.
The kids have had a fab summer in my opinion. Florida. Ruby falls. Rockcity. CDM....
I have been hitting crafts realllly hard lately (you may have seen some pics on FB)
I'm in the process of getting things together to do a craft show in October :)
SCHOOL STARTS TUESDAY!!!
And... Chris is at home for 2 weeks b/c he had a heart episode at work :( He is going to be just fine. but we are waiting on him to see a cardiologist (sept 10) Apparently, 240 beats per minute isn't normal... :/
Also, our house is coming together quite nicely :) I had my first get together at the house a couple of weeks ago and it was great. We still have the kitchen and the boys bedrooms to finish. Hopefully with the kids back in school we can tackle it.
Hadley is almost finished baking, and I'm getting so excited for Rachel and Ed. I want her to be a little rolly poley. Rachel is bigger every time I see her so I think I may get my wish. lol.
UGH. It's 10:45 and I have to leave here in 15 minutes to go to work :/
OH WELL!
Logans.... Actually I'm in a good mood right now about that place. I made some good money yesterday. It couldn't have came at a better time considering Chris' work situation.
I really should be wrapping things up, so I will do a better job at keeping you up to date and catch you later!
Really, it probably would have been even longer before my return, but this past Friday Rachel and I went to the Ringgold high school football game and ran into Olivia Crawford (can not remember her married name) who said she enjoyed reading Rachels blog and then I thought "Wow!" I have been leaving my fans hanging for most of the summer. By the way, high school football games... bittersweetness :/ It always makes me sad to watch the half time show and see the girls warming up and dancing in the stands... AAAAHHH! My glory days!!! (lol) On another note though, I feel like I am getting old. My birthday is less than a month away and I will be 25. Twenty-five!!!!! I remember being a teen and thinking 25 was old. eeehhhh....
So, to catch everyone up on the home life:
I still love Chris. 11/11 it will be 1 year :)
Gabe has grown 4 sizes over the summer... seriously.
The kids have had a fab summer in my opinion. Florida. Ruby falls. Rockcity. CDM....
I have been hitting crafts realllly hard lately (you may have seen some pics on FB)
I'm in the process of getting things together to do a craft show in October :)
SCHOOL STARTS TUESDAY!!!
And... Chris is at home for 2 weeks b/c he had a heart episode at work :( He is going to be just fine. but we are waiting on him to see a cardiologist (sept 10) Apparently, 240 beats per minute isn't normal... :/
Also, our house is coming together quite nicely :) I had my first get together at the house a couple of weeks ago and it was great. We still have the kitchen and the boys bedrooms to finish. Hopefully with the kids back in school we can tackle it.
Hadley is almost finished baking, and I'm getting so excited for Rachel and Ed. I want her to be a little rolly poley. Rachel is bigger every time I see her so I think I may get my wish. lol.
UGH. It's 10:45 and I have to leave here in 15 minutes to go to work :/
OH WELL!
Logans.... Actually I'm in a good mood right now about that place. I made some good money yesterday. It couldn't have came at a better time considering Chris' work situation.
I really should be wrapping things up, so I will do a better job at keeping you up to date and catch you later!
Friday, July 6, 2012
Vacay 2012
A play by play of the day by day:
Friday- We got kind of a late start. I spent all day packing and doing last minute laundry. I even tried to take a nap, but shut eye was not forth coming. Chris got home about 5 and we got busy loading my parents van. On our way to pick up the kids I remembered I forgot my ankle bracelet, seems trivial but I really wanted to take it, so we went back home to get it. Then we had to go pick Gabe's meds up from the pharmacy. Stopped to get something to eat for dinner and we were FINALLY on the interstate by 9 or a little after. Chris drove til we got through Atlanta and then I took over and drove til we were across the Florida line. Chris drove the last leg of the journey and we got to Pawpaw Sam's around 6 in the morning. Of course the kids were super excited and immediately wanted to go go go, but Chris and I HAD to take a nap.
Saturday- We woke up from the nap and Chris and I got the kids ready to go out for breakfast. Went to Cracker Barrel and really the only thing eventful that happened there was Gabe stood up to announce that he farted (loudly). We stayed with Chris' Pawpaw Sam. He lives right on Lake Wier. It's beautiful, he has brought in sand over the years and has a great setup right on the lake. Honestly, the kids have just as much fun there as they do at the ocean :) And we stay in a seperate little house he has for family or friends when they come to visit. So anyways I go to the store. Where we are staying also happens to be the largest retirement community in the country. They call it The Villages. The Villages is an old persons dream come true, I mean they even have stickers on their cars that say The Villages is where they came to croak. lol. They have their own radio station, happy hour (best margarita ever), tv station, ZIP CODE!!! They even have seperate lanes on the roads for golf carts and the Wal-mart even has a seperate parking for golf carts. No joke! So anyways I go to get groceries and it was so stressful b/c every isle I went down I had to dodge someone in a hoveround, and it was sooooo crowded. Anyways finally got back to the house and got to relax on the lake myself and we pretty much were beach bums for the rest of the day :) When the sun set we went out on the dock and ate some water melon. It was beautiful :) The only thing that could have made it better was if the wind wasn't blowing so hard that every time you took a bite of your watermelon the wind didn't spray the juice everywhere. lol.
Sunday- It was so nice not to have to set an alarm clock and just sleep in til... 9. lol. Ate breakfast and went down to the lake. Chris' sister, mom, niece with son, and little niece were on their way down as well and the kids were axniously waiting on their arrival. Around lunch time they finally got there and the real fun began. lol. To be honest we didn't do a whole lot Sunday except lay on the lake. This is the day I got my first layer of burn. My legs mainly while I floated out on the lake, my thighs were a nice shade of hot pink by the end of the day.
Monday- Ocean day. Last year we went to an Atlantic beach but Chris' sister Carrie suggested we go to a Gulf beach since the water and sand is much cleaner and clearer, and the rip tide not near as bad. So we decided to drive to Clear Water, a 2 and a half hour drive. We made great time and the traffic wasn't bad at all til we got on the strip. The beach was crowded but not too bad and we ended up having a great time, it was definitely worth the extra time driving. The water was much clearer and the sand was softer and more shells on the beach. The kids fed seagulls and got chased and fun was had by all :) we left around 4 and no one thought about the rush hour traffic in Tampa :( Pressley our youngest niece (6) had decided to ride back with us and while we were stuck in bumper to bumper traffic had a melt down and wanted to ride with her momma. Then Ethan is doing the pee-pee dance and near tears him self b/c his bladder is at max capacity. We are at the part of the interstate when all the by-passes and various interstates are criss-crossing each other and there is NO WHERE to go. So we had to push our way to the concrete wall in the middle of the interstate where Ethan opened the van door and pee-d then picked up a Pontiac car hood emblem which Chris made him put down. Finally we get out of the traffic and stopped for a happy meal and everyone is happy and no more tears were shed.
Tuesday- more lake and sun and relaxing and then in the evening Carrie (SIL) and niece Kayte babysat so Chris and I could go out to a romantic dinner :) We went to an italian place in The Villages called Red Sauce and it was delish. Very fancy. Then we got an ice cream and walked around the lake and the town square. They had some vendors set up in the square and I got a margarita while we walked around and looked at things. We found a vendor that made personalized banners with your choice of hip and cool border. We got Gabe a Thomas the Train, Mary a Tangled, Ethan a Spongebob, and Joey an Angry birds :) They are really nice and we plan on hanging them in their rooms. Also, I got a pair of flip flops that are super comfy at the Bass store. Chris didn't get anything for himself :/ He is a good dody to me :)
Wednesday- The 4th- We pretty much chilled all day, then later in the evening we had a cook out with tonssss of good food :) We were leaving that night but we had a great time and the kids were exhausted by the time we loaded up to leave. We were a few miles away when Chris' mom called and said we had forgotten Gabe's meds so we had to turn around. We were finally on the road again at 10. Driving home was much worse as far as being tired. Chris drove most of the way. Everytime my eyes shut all I saw was my comfy bed. lol.
Made it home and I thought I would have to blog soon so I didnt forget it all. We had an amazing time and this isn't everything we did. I could probably write a book. I love making memories with my family. Time goes by soo fast and they will be teenagers in the blink of an eye, and then adults. I caught myself looking all round, at the kids, at Chris just trying to soak up the moment and willing myself not to forget :) I can't wait til next summer!
Also, I got bit by a leech.
Friday- We got kind of a late start. I spent all day packing and doing last minute laundry. I even tried to take a nap, but shut eye was not forth coming. Chris got home about 5 and we got busy loading my parents van. On our way to pick up the kids I remembered I forgot my ankle bracelet, seems trivial but I really wanted to take it, so we went back home to get it. Then we had to go pick Gabe's meds up from the pharmacy. Stopped to get something to eat for dinner and we were FINALLY on the interstate by 9 or a little after. Chris drove til we got through Atlanta and then I took over and drove til we were across the Florida line. Chris drove the last leg of the journey and we got to Pawpaw Sam's around 6 in the morning. Of course the kids were super excited and immediately wanted to go go go, but Chris and I HAD to take a nap.
Saturday- We woke up from the nap and Chris and I got the kids ready to go out for breakfast. Went to Cracker Barrel and really the only thing eventful that happened there was Gabe stood up to announce that he farted (loudly). We stayed with Chris' Pawpaw Sam. He lives right on Lake Wier. It's beautiful, he has brought in sand over the years and has a great setup right on the lake. Honestly, the kids have just as much fun there as they do at the ocean :) And we stay in a seperate little house he has for family or friends when they come to visit. So anyways I go to the store. Where we are staying also happens to be the largest retirement community in the country. They call it The Villages. The Villages is an old persons dream come true, I mean they even have stickers on their cars that say The Villages is where they came to croak. lol. They have their own radio station, happy hour (best margarita ever), tv station, ZIP CODE!!! They even have seperate lanes on the roads for golf carts and the Wal-mart even has a seperate parking for golf carts. No joke! So anyways I go to get groceries and it was so stressful b/c every isle I went down I had to dodge someone in a hoveround, and it was sooooo crowded. Anyways finally got back to the house and got to relax on the lake myself and we pretty much were beach bums for the rest of the day :) When the sun set we went out on the dock and ate some water melon. It was beautiful :) The only thing that could have made it better was if the wind wasn't blowing so hard that every time you took a bite of your watermelon the wind didn't spray the juice everywhere. lol.
Sunday- It was so nice not to have to set an alarm clock and just sleep in til... 9. lol. Ate breakfast and went down to the lake. Chris' sister, mom, niece with son, and little niece were on their way down as well and the kids were axniously waiting on their arrival. Around lunch time they finally got there and the real fun began. lol. To be honest we didn't do a whole lot Sunday except lay on the lake. This is the day I got my first layer of burn. My legs mainly while I floated out on the lake, my thighs were a nice shade of hot pink by the end of the day.
Monday- Ocean day. Last year we went to an Atlantic beach but Chris' sister Carrie suggested we go to a Gulf beach since the water and sand is much cleaner and clearer, and the rip tide not near as bad. So we decided to drive to Clear Water, a 2 and a half hour drive. We made great time and the traffic wasn't bad at all til we got on the strip. The beach was crowded but not too bad and we ended up having a great time, it was definitely worth the extra time driving. The water was much clearer and the sand was softer and more shells on the beach. The kids fed seagulls and got chased and fun was had by all :) we left around 4 and no one thought about the rush hour traffic in Tampa :( Pressley our youngest niece (6) had decided to ride back with us and while we were stuck in bumper to bumper traffic had a melt down and wanted to ride with her momma. Then Ethan is doing the pee-pee dance and near tears him self b/c his bladder is at max capacity. We are at the part of the interstate when all the by-passes and various interstates are criss-crossing each other and there is NO WHERE to go. So we had to push our way to the concrete wall in the middle of the interstate where Ethan opened the van door and pee-d then picked up a Pontiac car hood emblem which Chris made him put down. Finally we get out of the traffic and stopped for a happy meal and everyone is happy and no more tears were shed.
Tuesday- more lake and sun and relaxing and then in the evening Carrie (SIL) and niece Kayte babysat so Chris and I could go out to a romantic dinner :) We went to an italian place in The Villages called Red Sauce and it was delish. Very fancy. Then we got an ice cream and walked around the lake and the town square. They had some vendors set up in the square and I got a margarita while we walked around and looked at things. We found a vendor that made personalized banners with your choice of hip and cool border. We got Gabe a Thomas the Train, Mary a Tangled, Ethan a Spongebob, and Joey an Angry birds :) They are really nice and we plan on hanging them in their rooms. Also, I got a pair of flip flops that are super comfy at the Bass store. Chris didn't get anything for himself :/ He is a good dody to me :)
Wednesday- The 4th- We pretty much chilled all day, then later in the evening we had a cook out with tonssss of good food :) We were leaving that night but we had a great time and the kids were exhausted by the time we loaded up to leave. We were a few miles away when Chris' mom called and said we had forgotten Gabe's meds so we had to turn around. We were finally on the road again at 10. Driving home was much worse as far as being tired. Chris drove most of the way. Everytime my eyes shut all I saw was my comfy bed. lol.
Made it home and I thought I would have to blog soon so I didnt forget it all. We had an amazing time and this isn't everything we did. I could probably write a book. I love making memories with my family. Time goes by soo fast and they will be teenagers in the blink of an eye, and then adults. I caught myself looking all round, at the kids, at Chris just trying to soak up the moment and willing myself not to forget :) I can't wait til next summer!
Also, I got bit by a leech.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Slacker
I know! I know! It's been almost a month since my last post, but I swear I have been SUPER busy. lol.
Well we have the living room and computer/ play room painted and new carpet installed :) This has made the biggest difference. I love to come home and, seriously, just look at the walls and walk on the carpet barefoot. Last night I vacuumed and it was FUN!
August 11th I'm having a Premier Jewellry party and this will be the first social gathering this house has seen since I moved in over a year ago. Chris and I still have a lot to get finished before then. So, I told him that when we get back from Florida next week we have to catch our 2nd wind and attack the DIY projects I've had stored in my mind for months. Thank God for Pinterest!!!
I plan on having a blog with before and after pics about the house make-over for everyone to see, so keep an eye for that in the future :)
Feeling very at ease about my fertility situation (or lack there of). The other day Mary asked when I was going to have a baby. I told her that I wasn't sure, that sometimes having a baby can take awhile. She then told me that to get pregnant I have to fall in love with her daddy and then I will get a baby in my belly. lol. I told her that daddy and I were in love but even then sometimes it can take awhile, then I tried to explain to her that women have eggs kinda like chickens (don't know if this was the right path to take lol) and that my eggs were different from other womens eggs......
:/
She then asked when I was cooking dinner. Guess she lost interest. lol.
I haven't had a cycle since December, but I'm trying not to worry too much. They told me that the cysts or follicles don't hurt me so as long as I'm not in pain I'm ok. I'm running with that b/c who enjoys having a period? not me. The only thing that is seriously killing me is my ACNE! UGH! I have always had a problem with breakouts, but when I'm on BC I have little to no acne. I have turned into a pizza face. My whole face is broken out and what really stinks is I have the under the skin pimples that just won't pop (gross i know) and they hurt :( When I met Chris I was on BC so I had a clear face and now I'm a pizza face. He says he doesn't care, but it's realllllllly annoying me.
By the way, I came home from work the other night and Chris had bought me a dozen roses and a verrrrrrrry sweet card :) 2 years later and he is still so sweet to me. Still opens doors for me. Also, he does housework. You read right. Housework. I sometimes call him Danny Tanner.
We are leaving for Florida tomorrow night. So ready! I'm ready to relax and enjoy not seeing the Roadhouse for a week. Well, I'm going to wrap this up got to get ready for me last day at work before we leave!
Well we have the living room and computer/ play room painted and new carpet installed :) This has made the biggest difference. I love to come home and, seriously, just look at the walls and walk on the carpet barefoot. Last night I vacuumed and it was FUN!
August 11th I'm having a Premier Jewellry party and this will be the first social gathering this house has seen since I moved in over a year ago. Chris and I still have a lot to get finished before then. So, I told him that when we get back from Florida next week we have to catch our 2nd wind and attack the DIY projects I've had stored in my mind for months. Thank God for Pinterest!!!
I plan on having a blog with before and after pics about the house make-over for everyone to see, so keep an eye for that in the future :)
Feeling very at ease about my fertility situation (or lack there of). The other day Mary asked when I was going to have a baby. I told her that I wasn't sure, that sometimes having a baby can take awhile. She then told me that to get pregnant I have to fall in love with her daddy and then I will get a baby in my belly. lol. I told her that daddy and I were in love but even then sometimes it can take awhile, then I tried to explain to her that women have eggs kinda like chickens (don't know if this was the right path to take lol) and that my eggs were different from other womens eggs......
:/
She then asked when I was cooking dinner. Guess she lost interest. lol.
I haven't had a cycle since December, but I'm trying not to worry too much. They told me that the cysts or follicles don't hurt me so as long as I'm not in pain I'm ok. I'm running with that b/c who enjoys having a period? not me. The only thing that is seriously killing me is my ACNE! UGH! I have always had a problem with breakouts, but when I'm on BC I have little to no acne. I have turned into a pizza face. My whole face is broken out and what really stinks is I have the under the skin pimples that just won't pop (gross i know) and they hurt :( When I met Chris I was on BC so I had a clear face and now I'm a pizza face. He says he doesn't care, but it's realllllllly annoying me.
By the way, I came home from work the other night and Chris had bought me a dozen roses and a verrrrrrrry sweet card :) 2 years later and he is still so sweet to me. Still opens doors for me. Also, he does housework. You read right. Housework. I sometimes call him Danny Tanner.
We are leaving for Florida tomorrow night. So ready! I'm ready to relax and enjoy not seeing the Roadhouse for a week. Well, I'm going to wrap this up got to get ready for me last day at work before we leave!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Patience is a virtue
It's been awhile since I've written anything, but to tell you the truth I have either been so busy I don't have time to blog or I feel like I don't have anything very interesting to write about :/
School is officially finished for the year and it's summer break. YAY! I am really excited right now, but I know in about 5/6 weeks I'll be begging for September 4th to get here. So far we have pretty much a full agenda. Florida at the end of June and I couldn't be more ready to see the ocean and chillax on the lake. Bring on the margaritas!!! Plus Chris and I are forcing ourselves to finally do something about fixing up the house. It's needed to be done but we have pushed it back again and again. Not anymore!
Still finding ways to pinch pennies here and there. I finally got my clothes line abut a week ago. Honestly, Chris has hung out more clothes than I have at this point but it seems to be working wonderfully. One day last week it was super hot and sunny and a load of clothes dried in less than an hour! Today I also made my first batch ever of home made butter! I still haven't tried it yet, but how can you mess it up really?
Last week I went to the doctor with Rachel and I found out the sex of her baby on the way. We had a Gender Reveal Party today and I thought it was a success :) Lots of good food (ate so much thought I was going to barf) and I made PINK filled cupcakes for her and Ed since they are having a baby girl :)
I haven't told anyone but Chris this but when I first found out Rachel was pregnant it was hard for me to be happy for her... I admit that I was completely jealous. I didn't like feeling that way but I did. I had to force the excitement when we would talk about the pregnancy... It was hard. Really I don't know what made things change but I have decided not to stress about ME. In a way I've let it all go. I realize that my time will come when it's the right time and to be honest... now is not the best time. Chris and I still have a lot we need to do before we are ready to take on an infant. I realized that not only was I stressing myself out over getting pregnant I was stressing myself out over whether or not we could handle having a baby at this point anyways. Am I ready to take care of 4 kids, wake up with a baby at night, have a baby that is completely dependent on me for EVERYTHING, and stay out of work for an extended period of time? and the answer is no.
In a perfect world Chris and I would be the Duggars (not really lol). Some people can be baby factories and not think about the responsibilities they have in the present. Thats cool too. Whatever floats your boat. Me? I can't do that.
So I came to the realization that right now and in the near future I'm going to have to be happy with what I have. And what I have is amazing :) and my best friend is going to have a baby! and I am SOOOOO very happy for her and Ed. When I saw that sweet little profile on the ultrasound machine it brought tears to my eyes. Hadley is a REAL human being. I know she is going to be beautiful and the sweetest little ballerina. And I mean it 100% when I say I couldn't be happier.
I'm not going back on BC so if it happens it happens and maybe in a year or so if it hasn't happened I'll look into more drastic measures. It's not that I've changed my mind, but I was really thinking that 6+1 would be a field of daisies with cotton candy clouds, but it's not about ME, it's about US. And, who is more in tune with reality but myself? lol. I got caught up in my fairytale for a few months but now I've smelled the coffee and woke up. Will we have a baby? yes. Anytime soon? Probably not.
Patience, my friends, patience.
School is officially finished for the year and it's summer break. YAY! I am really excited right now, but I know in about 5/6 weeks I'll be begging for September 4th to get here. So far we have pretty much a full agenda. Florida at the end of June and I couldn't be more ready to see the ocean and chillax on the lake. Bring on the margaritas!!! Plus Chris and I are forcing ourselves to finally do something about fixing up the house. It's needed to be done but we have pushed it back again and again. Not anymore!
Still finding ways to pinch pennies here and there. I finally got my clothes line abut a week ago. Honestly, Chris has hung out more clothes than I have at this point but it seems to be working wonderfully. One day last week it was super hot and sunny and a load of clothes dried in less than an hour! Today I also made my first batch ever of home made butter! I still haven't tried it yet, but how can you mess it up really?
Last week I went to the doctor with Rachel and I found out the sex of her baby on the way. We had a Gender Reveal Party today and I thought it was a success :) Lots of good food (ate so much thought I was going to barf) and I made PINK filled cupcakes for her and Ed since they are having a baby girl :)
I haven't told anyone but Chris this but when I first found out Rachel was pregnant it was hard for me to be happy for her... I admit that I was completely jealous. I didn't like feeling that way but I did. I had to force the excitement when we would talk about the pregnancy... It was hard. Really I don't know what made things change but I have decided not to stress about ME. In a way I've let it all go. I realize that my time will come when it's the right time and to be honest... now is not the best time. Chris and I still have a lot we need to do before we are ready to take on an infant. I realized that not only was I stressing myself out over getting pregnant I was stressing myself out over whether or not we could handle having a baby at this point anyways. Am I ready to take care of 4 kids, wake up with a baby at night, have a baby that is completely dependent on me for EVERYTHING, and stay out of work for an extended period of time? and the answer is no.
In a perfect world Chris and I would be the Duggars (not really lol). Some people can be baby factories and not think about the responsibilities they have in the present. Thats cool too. Whatever floats your boat. Me? I can't do that.
So I came to the realization that right now and in the near future I'm going to have to be happy with what I have. And what I have is amazing :) and my best friend is going to have a baby! and I am SOOOOO very happy for her and Ed. When I saw that sweet little profile on the ultrasound machine it brought tears to my eyes. Hadley is a REAL human being. I know she is going to be beautiful and the sweetest little ballerina. And I mean it 100% when I say I couldn't be happier.
I'm not going back on BC so if it happens it happens and maybe in a year or so if it hasn't happened I'll look into more drastic measures. It's not that I've changed my mind, but I was really thinking that 6+1 would be a field of daisies with cotton candy clouds, but it's not about ME, it's about US. And, who is more in tune with reality but myself? lol. I got caught up in my fairytale for a few months but now I've smelled the coffee and woke up. Will we have a baby? yes. Anytime soon? Probably not.
Patience, my friends, patience.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Whats most important.
So things have settled down this week. Thank God! I seriously have to figure out a way to de-stress. Every thing gets to me and it gets to me so much so that I find it difficult to focus on what's in front of me.
Today I made out a "To-Do" list and I actually ended up getting everything done but one thing (Cleaning the kids' bedrooms). I think that at the ripe age of 24 I'm going to have to be that lady with lists. ugh.
Yesterday Chris came home with some exciting news. Due to a turn of fortunate events we will be able to take the kids to Florida this year. We had previously decided that this year we wouldn't be able to go because of funds, BUT now we get to go! So excited and we will go at the end of June which will be here before we know it :)
The school year is winding down and the kids have so much planned in the next few weeks. This friday is field day, and I'll be volunteering, hope I get time to see the kids... and later this month Ethan will be in a play. He has to dress up as a carrot. lol. How cute! will have to go shopping this weekend for some carrot making materials. May have to get on Pinterest after this (random) post.
Also, today we (me, mom, crystal, ashley, and mary) had some Mothers Day pics taken. Amanda Russel took them and I think they will turn out great :) I usually use TS photography (you rock Tessa) but Amanda Russel photog was having a Mothers Day special, and I'm all about snatching up good deals :) I honestly can't remember the last time we had some nice photos taken with my mom. I know that I will cherish them and hold them close to my heart. My mom is and has always been my rock, what I fall back on. I'm so grateful for our close relationship and the respect we have for one another. Ok Ok I'm done being sappy. lol.
My eye lids feel like they are being pulled down with 50 pound weights. (head falls on key board...)
Today I made out a "To-Do" list and I actually ended up getting everything done but one thing (Cleaning the kids' bedrooms). I think that at the ripe age of 24 I'm going to have to be that lady with lists. ugh.
Yesterday Chris came home with some exciting news. Due to a turn of fortunate events we will be able to take the kids to Florida this year. We had previously decided that this year we wouldn't be able to go because of funds, BUT now we get to go! So excited and we will go at the end of June which will be here before we know it :)
The school year is winding down and the kids have so much planned in the next few weeks. This friday is field day, and I'll be volunteering, hope I get time to see the kids... and later this month Ethan will be in a play. He has to dress up as a carrot. lol. How cute! will have to go shopping this weekend for some carrot making materials. May have to get on Pinterest after this (random) post.
Also, today we (me, mom, crystal, ashley, and mary) had some Mothers Day pics taken. Amanda Russel took them and I think they will turn out great :) I usually use TS photography (you rock Tessa) but Amanda Russel photog was having a Mothers Day special, and I'm all about snatching up good deals :) I honestly can't remember the last time we had some nice photos taken with my mom. I know that I will cherish them and hold them close to my heart. My mom is and has always been my rock, what I fall back on. I'm so grateful for our close relationship and the respect we have for one another. Ok Ok I'm done being sappy. lol.
My eye lids feel like they are being pulled down with 50 pound weights. (head falls on key board...)
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