I know! I know! It's been almost a month since my last post, but I swear I have been SUPER busy. lol.
Well we have the living room and computer/ play room painted and new carpet installed :) This has made the biggest difference. I love to come home and, seriously, just look at the walls and walk on the carpet barefoot. Last night I vacuumed and it was FUN!
August 11th I'm having a Premier Jewellry party and this will be the first social gathering this house has seen since I moved in over a year ago. Chris and I still have a lot to get finished before then. So, I told him that when we get back from Florida next week we have to catch our 2nd wind and attack the DIY projects I've had stored in my mind for months. Thank God for Pinterest!!!
I plan on having a blog with before and after pics about the house make-over for everyone to see, so keep an eye for that in the future :)
Feeling very at ease about my fertility situation (or lack there of). The other day Mary asked when I was going to have a baby. I told her that I wasn't sure, that sometimes having a baby can take awhile. She then told me that to get pregnant I have to fall in love with her daddy and then I will get a baby in my belly. lol. I told her that daddy and I were in love but even then sometimes it can take awhile, then I tried to explain to her that women have eggs kinda like chickens (don't know if this was the right path to take lol) and that my eggs were different from other womens eggs......
:/
She then asked when I was cooking dinner. Guess she lost interest. lol.
I haven't had a cycle since December, but I'm trying not to worry too much. They told me that the cysts or follicles don't hurt me so as long as I'm not in pain I'm ok. I'm running with that b/c who enjoys having a period? not me. The only thing that is seriously killing me is my ACNE! UGH! I have always had a problem with breakouts, but when I'm on BC I have little to no acne. I have turned into a pizza face. My whole face is broken out and what really stinks is I have the under the skin pimples that just won't pop (gross i know) and they hurt :( When I met Chris I was on BC so I had a clear face and now I'm a pizza face. He says he doesn't care, but it's realllllllly annoying me.
By the way, I came home from work the other night and Chris had bought me a dozen roses and a verrrrrrrry sweet card :) 2 years later and he is still so sweet to me. Still opens doors for me. Also, he does housework. You read right. Housework. I sometimes call him Danny Tanner.
We are leaving for Florida tomorrow night. So ready! I'm ready to relax and enjoy not seeing the Roadhouse for a week. Well, I'm going to wrap this up got to get ready for me last day at work before we leave!
The Gilberts
The reason for my domestication
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Patience is a virtue
It's been awhile since I've written anything, but to tell you the truth I have either been so busy I don't have time to blog or I feel like I don't have anything very interesting to write about :/
School is officially finished for the year and it's summer break. YAY! I am really excited right now, but I know in about 5/6 weeks I'll be begging for September 4th to get here. So far we have pretty much a full agenda. Florida at the end of June and I couldn't be more ready to see the ocean and chillax on the lake. Bring on the margaritas!!! Plus Chris and I are forcing ourselves to finally do something about fixing up the house. It's needed to be done but we have pushed it back again and again. Not anymore!
Still finding ways to pinch pennies here and there. I finally got my clothes line abut a week ago. Honestly, Chris has hung out more clothes than I have at this point but it seems to be working wonderfully. One day last week it was super hot and sunny and a load of clothes dried in less than an hour! Today I also made my first batch ever of home made butter! I still haven't tried it yet, but how can you mess it up really?
Last week I went to the doctor with Rachel and I found out the sex of her baby on the way. We had a Gender Reveal Party today and I thought it was a success :) Lots of good food (ate so much thought I was going to barf) and I made PINK filled cupcakes for her and Ed since they are having a baby girl :)
I haven't told anyone but Chris this but when I first found out Rachel was pregnant it was hard for me to be happy for her... I admit that I was completely jealous. I didn't like feeling that way but I did. I had to force the excitement when we would talk about the pregnancy... It was hard. Really I don't know what made things change but I have decided not to stress about ME. In a way I've let it all go. I realize that my time will come when it's the right time and to be honest... now is not the best time. Chris and I still have a lot we need to do before we are ready to take on an infant. I realized that not only was I stressing myself out over getting pregnant I was stressing myself out over whether or not we could handle having a baby at this point anyways. Am I ready to take care of 4 kids, wake up with a baby at night, have a baby that is completely dependent on me for EVERYTHING, and stay out of work for an extended period of time? and the answer is no.
In a perfect world Chris and I would be the Duggars (not really lol). Some people can be baby factories and not think about the responsibilities they have in the present. Thats cool too. Whatever floats your boat. Me? I can't do that.
So I came to the realization that right now and in the near future I'm going to have to be happy with what I have. And what I have is amazing :) and my best friend is going to have a baby! and I am SOOOOO very happy for her and Ed. When I saw that sweet little profile on the ultrasound machine it brought tears to my eyes. Hadley is a REAL human being. I know she is going to be beautiful and the sweetest little ballerina. And I mean it 100% when I say I couldn't be happier.
I'm not going back on BC so if it happens it happens and maybe in a year or so if it hasn't happened I'll look into more drastic measures. It's not that I've changed my mind, but I was really thinking that 6+1 would be a field of daisies with cotton candy clouds, but it's not about ME, it's about US. And, who is more in tune with reality but myself? lol. I got caught up in my fairytale for a few months but now I've smelled the coffee and woke up. Will we have a baby? yes. Anytime soon? Probably not.
Patience, my friends, patience.
School is officially finished for the year and it's summer break. YAY! I am really excited right now, but I know in about 5/6 weeks I'll be begging for September 4th to get here. So far we have pretty much a full agenda. Florida at the end of June and I couldn't be more ready to see the ocean and chillax on the lake. Bring on the margaritas!!! Plus Chris and I are forcing ourselves to finally do something about fixing up the house. It's needed to be done but we have pushed it back again and again. Not anymore!
Still finding ways to pinch pennies here and there. I finally got my clothes line abut a week ago. Honestly, Chris has hung out more clothes than I have at this point but it seems to be working wonderfully. One day last week it was super hot and sunny and a load of clothes dried in less than an hour! Today I also made my first batch ever of home made butter! I still haven't tried it yet, but how can you mess it up really?
Last week I went to the doctor with Rachel and I found out the sex of her baby on the way. We had a Gender Reveal Party today and I thought it was a success :) Lots of good food (ate so much thought I was going to barf) and I made PINK filled cupcakes for her and Ed since they are having a baby girl :)
I haven't told anyone but Chris this but when I first found out Rachel was pregnant it was hard for me to be happy for her... I admit that I was completely jealous. I didn't like feeling that way but I did. I had to force the excitement when we would talk about the pregnancy... It was hard. Really I don't know what made things change but I have decided not to stress about ME. In a way I've let it all go. I realize that my time will come when it's the right time and to be honest... now is not the best time. Chris and I still have a lot we need to do before we are ready to take on an infant. I realized that not only was I stressing myself out over getting pregnant I was stressing myself out over whether or not we could handle having a baby at this point anyways. Am I ready to take care of 4 kids, wake up with a baby at night, have a baby that is completely dependent on me for EVERYTHING, and stay out of work for an extended period of time? and the answer is no.
In a perfect world Chris and I would be the Duggars (not really lol). Some people can be baby factories and not think about the responsibilities they have in the present. Thats cool too. Whatever floats your boat. Me? I can't do that.
So I came to the realization that right now and in the near future I'm going to have to be happy with what I have. And what I have is amazing :) and my best friend is going to have a baby! and I am SOOOOO very happy for her and Ed. When I saw that sweet little profile on the ultrasound machine it brought tears to my eyes. Hadley is a REAL human being. I know she is going to be beautiful and the sweetest little ballerina. And I mean it 100% when I say I couldn't be happier.
I'm not going back on BC so if it happens it happens and maybe in a year or so if it hasn't happened I'll look into more drastic measures. It's not that I've changed my mind, but I was really thinking that 6+1 would be a field of daisies with cotton candy clouds, but it's not about ME, it's about US. And, who is more in tune with reality but myself? lol. I got caught up in my fairytale for a few months but now I've smelled the coffee and woke up. Will we have a baby? yes. Anytime soon? Probably not.
Patience, my friends, patience.
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