Well deserved *me* time.

Well, the year is winding down and in a way I wish I could say that my to-do list is.... but as most mothers and wives know it NEVER does. lol.

One thing that I have told my self lately that I must do, is to start finding someway to do something for myself. I spend every waking moment doing for Chris and the kids, or working. My first year of marriage has been a blessing, but one lesson I have learned is that I can't do EVERYTHING.

I am a control freak. I like doing things my way. I'm having to do a better job at letting this go (for my sanity).

Number one on the list is taking better care of myself :) I have started a diet. I downloaded My Fitness Pal on my phone and so far it has been wonderful. I know why I have never counted calories before... b/c after 200-300 I lose count. MFP keeps up with it for me and it also has a large data base of restaurant foods and grocery foods that I can quickly look up. I recommend the app.. It's been a life saver :) So far I have lost 5 pounds. I have always been impatient with weight loss , but this time I am determined to do it the healthy way. So, if that means I lose it slowly, that's fine, as long as I keep it off :)

I went for a walk a couple of days ago and I was really surprised at how out of shape I am. I guess I just assumed that b/c I work on my feet I was in decent shape.... no I'm not. lol. Just walking for 45 minutes was a workout. I've got some improving to do there.

Number two, hopefully I will be returning to school in January. It will all come down to the financial aid. I'm excited and nervous, but I know it will be worth it. I want to do it for me, but also for my family. We deserve some financial stability :)

Also, a little update on my downstairs... I seem to have had two cycles in the past two months. I'm hoping that somehow (maybe the weight loss?) my body is finally getting its hormones leveled out. It would be great :) Right now it is the 29th day of my cycle and for 2 days now I have been cramping... so I'm hoping that Aunt Flo is about to show up. If this is TMI for you, pretend you didn't read it.

Besides Aunt Flo deciding to show up at random my Baby Fever has reared its nasty head again :/
I blame Rachel and my SIL Alicia (who just found out she is having a bebe girl). I just want to have a sweet smelling little bundle of joy to hold... I want a boy b/c they are less drama, but I want a girl to dress up. Eh, well if it's meant to be then it will happen (but that's a hard pill to swallow...).

Tonight was one of the few nights here lately that the kids and I just got to chill. After I cleaned the house up a bit we just relaxed. It was so nice not having to hustle to get homework, baths, and supper done. Or worry about dance practice or cub scouts. I wanted the kids to be involved in something besides just going to school, but MAN I didn't think about how much EXTRA work I was adding to myself. lol.

Well, I'm going to wrap this up :) Can't wait for girls night monday with Rachel :) BD part DEUX!