Rollercoaster.

                                                                       "After a While"

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

by Veronica A. Shoffstall

 

 

I copy and pasted this from Angela Amick. It stuck with me and it moved me because it's true. Yesterday I went back to the ob/gyn. I'm starting to think I may need to change doctors, not because I think he is making the wrong choices for me, but because he talks to me like I don't have a brain. :/

 

After telling me I shouldn't go on a low carb diet and a lecture on how metabolism works I got yet another lecture when I told him I had started seeing a chiropractor after reading some online articles that it can POSSIBLY help with fertility.

 

"The endocrine system is my area of expertise and your spine has nothing to do with your ovaries."

 

O.K. but along with the spine come 1,000's of nerves which control your entire body. It's like the super speed way for the body and it's functions. I still think that chiropractic adjustments can help improve fertility, maybe not for everyone, but I'm still going. I LOVE my chiropractor! It feels so good to go and have him work out all my kinks.

 

The next few months are going to be sooo busy. Basically, we are on the downward slope for school. The last day of school is June 1st, and I'm ready! Summer break isn't even here yet and I'm thinking about the next school year. Hopefully, Ethan will be with Mary's teacher of this year. We love Mrs. Morgan :) and next year Gabe will be in 5th grade :( I'm already building anxiety about Middle School... Especially b/c he will have to go alone without his brothers and sister :( I'll be a basket case this time next year!

 

Random ramblings.

 

Also, this weekend I'm getting a clothes line! yayyy! You may think this is no reason to get excited, but anyway to save money is a reason for excitement. When you do an average of 2 loads of laundry a day, a chance to not use the dryer as much is a good thing! I have been continuously looking for ways for us to save money.

 

Home made laundry detergent.

 

Raw milk and eggs.

 

When the kids aren't  too dirty having them all use the same bath water (don't judge me lol)

 

Consignment and Thrift store shopping.

 

Losing the movie channels.

 

What else is there???

 

This Friday is the Special Olympics and I'm super stoked to see Gabe and Joey. Just bummed I won't be able to stay the entire time. Gotta love the Roadhouse. Puke. Well going to get off here and clean up a bit and then maybe fit in a nap.