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So, things around the Gilbert household have settled into a routine.... of sorts :)

I'm currently off mon-wed which has been a life saver as far as my sanity and school work goes. Of course I am a procrastinator but I have decided that this is just part of my personality and I should embrace it. lol. I give my first big speech next week and have decided on the topic "How to make a Litter Box Cake" should be fun and tasty (hopefully). I'll be sure to post pics on my next blog :) I have to say that my least favorite class is Art Appreciation. I thought that it would be my fave and that it wouldn't be all that difficult. Honestly, I don't think the class has to be as difficult as it is for us to learn the material, but the instructor is.... I don't how to explain it.... weird. I always thought that I was an artistic person until I had that class. Now I realize that while I do like some things I do not appreciate all art. I'm ok with that. A triangle with two blue squares looks like.... a triangle with two blue squares and I can't derive any more meaning other than that. lol. I've decided that if I can make a "C" in the class I'll be more than satisfied. In all my other classes I'm making A's. Ballin.

Work = Easy Peasy. I sub on Tursdays and Fridays and work Sat and Sun. I'm already getting attached to my kids there. I'ts hard not to. I love that I look forward to seeing their little faces. I've been in the infant room most nights. For the most part it has been wonderful but I have had a few wailing fits that have made me want to run to the hospital to have my woman parts ripped out. lol. I love feeding my little babies though. They make the sweetest sounds when they eat :)

Chris is great. Always so helpful. Marriage is about being a team in all things. It shouldn't fall on one person to do more than the other. Chris and I ask each other how each others day has been. He will ask me if I slept well :) or would I like him to cook :) We are always concerned about the other and it's genuine not just to shut the other one up.... I think. lol. I just feel blessed to have such a great husband. It's rare I take him for granted and when I do I'll quickly catch myself. We are planning a little 2 day get-a-way next week to Tellico and I'm so excited to see that river again and take a trip down memory lane :)

I have a busy day ahead but I just wanted to get this down... She has been on my mind lately. I don't want it to seem odd. I've been thinking about Holly almost everyday. It's not that I'm dwelling on her and her death b/c I'm not. Sometimes she just crosses my mind quickly and sometimes the whole way home I'll think of her. Memories. Also, I've dreamed of her twice now. Both dreams have been very weird.... In both dreams I was aware that she had passed but she was still there. The last dream I had was a few days ago and in my dream she was happy, smiling, and pregnant.... I've lost people that were close to me before but I've never dreamed about them or thought about them so much. I keep wondering why that is? Maybe, b/c I'm older now. An adult with a family and children. I think of Addy and Preston everytime I think of her. I don't have a feeling of sadness either. Just thoughts. Maybe b/c the pink ribbon is EVERYWHERE is why she is always on my mind. Who could help but think of her when you see it?

Alright, well it's time for me to go and tackle the day!