So, I'm up to 6 followers now :) One of them being myself... Not sure how that happened :/
Today is "Eight Fears". Muhahahahaaaa (evil laugh)
Number one: Since this past year when a friend of mine found he had a tumor hiding in his stomach I almost daily wonder if something nasty is hiding in my body or Chris'. I honestly don't how I would make it through life without him. His migraine's worry me the most and the fact that his skull is un-even. Weird. He won't go to a doctor either.... ugh.
Number two: A hospital birth. Yes, you read right. The thought of having a baby at home is a lot more comforting to me than the thought of having a baby in a hospital. Strangers in and out of the room. Needles and machines hooked up to me. A catheter. An epidural :( I've never broken a bone and never been sick enough that I had to be in a hospital. The thought terrifies me. The thought of having to get a C-section makes me light headed. lol.
Number three: Having a child with autism or any other disability. I love Gabe and Joey with all my heart and if Chris and I had a baby who was born with a disability or was diagnosed autistic it would make me love them no less. But I do worry about the effect that it would have on the rest of the children and the effect it would have on our family relationship. And of course the stress and worry.
Number four: Gabe and Joey and how they will manage adulthood. It's something I think about often. Right now they are but 8 and 9 years old, but soon enough (I'm sure the years will fly by) they will be 18. And what does the world offer them? For themselves I want them to be self sustaining adults who can make a living and make a difference in society. It's what we all want for our children right? To find happiness with a special someone. To have a family if thats what they want. I just want them to be able to do the best they can do. Whatever that is. And if it's living at home with Chris and I thats ok too :)
Number 5: Mary's developing diva nature. Not really a big concern or "fear" bc she is a good kid. But believe me when I say she can tell a lie better than anyone I know, and can shake that head around like someone off the "Bad girls club" if mad enough. Teenage years = ughhhhhhh. lol. She's a boss!
Number 6: Heights. I can barely stand on a step ladder without getting nervous. lol.
Number 7: Letting people down. I will commit to almost anything if someone asks me b/c I feel like if I don't they will be super disapointed in me. Me = Pushover
Number eight: Peoples mouth. lol. Not really a fear. But! If you have ANYTHING out of the ordinary about your teeth or mouth. Includes but is not limited to: braces. no teeth. bad teeth. retainer. something stuck in your teeth. or bad breath. lol. I will not be able to look away from your mouth while you speak to me. Another one of my bad habits :/
Got to work tonight so I think I'll go take a wee snooze now. And leave some comments. Don't you love me anymore?!
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